What a great start to my holidays.
I'm sick.
Aftermath of all the intensive mugging.
Sob sob...

Luckily "he" was there for me.
Lost my voice, couldn't speak.
Yet "he" understands me perfectly.
Hugged me while I slept.
"His" presence's so comforting.

Gonna meet "him" tomorrow after "his" last paper.

Can't wait to see "him" again.

LIBRA AND LIBRA COMPATIBILITY

With another Libra, you share numerous experiences, many of them beautiful. There's lots of laughter, much art and light, but not too much staying power. This relationship is good for fun and games, but where settling down is concerned, there are apt to be problems. You come down from the clouds to face everyday realities and the relationship undergoes a marked change. It can work, but it requires wisdom and maturity. The Libra woman takes marriage seriously. She takes a relationship seriously. She is not apt to be promiscuous. She wants beauty and considers you a beautiful person. You can easily hurt her. She has character. You will have to be considerate or you will lose her. You will have to be kind or you will disillusion her. If you succeed in winning her, you will have won for yourself an opportunity for peace, contentment and love.

I'm screwed. Big time.

Since I'm already online, here helping Ling to upload her video, I might as well blog.

Here goes my blog of the day:

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Haa.... Gone crazy from studying EE3001.

Damn the lecturers.

Better not let me see them driving their respective cars.

I will leave them my infamous mark on their vehicle.

Hubby have played it numerous time. Suddenly addicted to this song after he stop playing, it just stuck in my head. Oh its his friends as well... ^_^

Oh my, just came back from Hubby's place. He's sick, the feeling that I have is weird, as if I'm sick also. Quite worried about him as he is doing morning shift, he is already collapsing but still don't wanna go to bed as I'm around. At least, I manage to force him in bed before I leave, manage to help him to cover blanket too ^_^.

Met Hubby yesterday as well, he went to do his tattoo. I think its his tattoo that made him sick, as he is very cold yesterday. I was like holding an ice cube in hand when I hold his. Anyway, its ok for him to get sick, cause his baby is here mahz. Its only he allow anot.

I finish my major operationg as well, have the crown implanted into my 2 teeth. Next month need to do some filling and in January, I'll need to go for wisdom tooth operation and will be away for 1 week MC!! Yeah!!

Actually, yesterday I realise something, I'm really a think too much person and had decided to change mindset from yesterday onwards. All along, I thought Hubby mind me going clubbing cause his voice or expression don't really please me when I told him I'm going or finish clubbing. Think its cause I'm abit high that's why it displease him. Nontheless, we manage to clear the air at least on my side, we can club all we want but no intoxication, promise on both side. ^_^

Tommorrow is my daddy's big day, Mr Boonie... getting married at Calrton Hotel. Red packet to give, 80 bucks. Lucky I have most of the single at my table, if not I will force Hubby to go even if he is having fever, and I'll buy him what ever suite that is nice.

Will be meeting Julie first as she agree to accompany me to Sim Lim to look for the tape cleaner, its actually meant for Hubby cause today we are trying to view some tapes from Nepal, but the tape cannot be played. ARGH, I'm going to find that cleaner out and going to have the machine ia thorough cleaning.

Gonna sleep now, *pray pray* Hubby to get well soon, his baby here is very worried at this end here. Oh, and I hope he wont be angry about me as I refuse to let him send me out even to the door step. I just don't want you to catch a cold dear. Revitalise for the pretty me tomorrow!!

Lazy to type out.

Here is the email from Cla:

Bitching headache.
Damn all the electromagnetic formulas.
Torturing my pathetic electron-size brain.

Not in a good mood.
Coupled with the fact that "he" has probably forgotten "his" promise.

Never promise me what you'll do when you didn't do it in the end.

Recently, have seen alot of reflection on so many people. Can't comment much here, you know this is the negative thing about blog. If your blog is too popular you have to restrict your flow. Sis Yu how come your leg is pain you never inform me? I'll try to crack your bone to make you feel better. ^_^ just kidding relax relax ok, if he is worth it just have the humble pie, nothing to lose what. You know what I mean don't make me preach on you again. heez.

Today's the first day of my Nepali lesson, nothing to do at home while waiting for Sis Yu, went online to read about Nepali. All I can remember now is only Ma and Timi. OMG, I'm just so bad at it man. Saturday will have crush course with Hubby. Ho Ho Uhi will teach ma Nepali and ma will teach uhi Chinese.

Crab!! More cheerful now, thank god that Hubby never forsake me. As for now, everything is back to normal. Tomorrow have a long day to go, stayback with my GF to do overtime. Its much more nicer to work without everyone, no pressure, no calls, no broken instructions. ^_^

Today Hubby did a very sweet thing. He volunteer to accompany me to the dentist. Yeah GF can take off le, no need to accompany every week. Its his off day, and instead of resting at home , he wants to follow me the dental. So sweet right ^_^ ``

Alright la nothing to write, have to go ma timi uhi. tataz...

Just came back home from dinner with Ling.

Having difficulty walking.

Left kneecap hurts like !@#$

Bloody painful.

Will blog more tomorrow.

When the hurt subsides.

Here I'm suffocating
All I need is to breathe
I am smothered under pressure
Relief is what I seek
What i do is never right
What they say is never fair
I cry and scream
and throw a fit
But no one ever seem to care
None will listen to what i say
Makes me doubt my existence
My life is not of any importance
Yet I'm living everyday
I can't do what i want
Nor express how I feel
I can't justify my acts
But only through a poem of pain and hate
I'm confused and alone
I'm lost inside my mind
Not one has searched beyond my looks
to see what they may find
Confusing thoughts 
Mixed up feelings 
Rendered me lost
I need to leave
For none makes sense
Who understands how I feel
for I'm still suffocating
Struggling to breathe
I'm smothered under feelings
Under injustice
All I desire is
Just let me BE

Never say I love you
If you don't really care

Never talk of feelings
If they aren't really there

Never hold my hand
If you mean to break my heart

Never say forever
If you ever plan to part

Never look into my eyes
If you are telling me a lie

Never say hello
If you think you'll say goodbye

Never say that I'm THE one
If you dream of more than me

Never lock up my heart
If you don't have the key

Finally calming down, have think alot last night and this afternoon, alot of brain cell have sacrifice bravely in the process. ^_^ I salute you brain cell.

Yesterday have a talk with Hubby and he have picture me the future we are having. Its very gray, very very gray. Brokedown yesterday as I feel very injustify and unfair that I need to give up this relationship not even trying. Its not the elements of giving and taking, its about the environment, the culture.

Have spoken to mummy about it, I'm very surprise that she support me. She ask me the very question that my sister ask me also. "You know yourself what is best for you. If you really love Rohit then just go with him lor. Its very hard on you but you will survive cause Rohit is behind you." Alright I'm not amaze that Sister Yu said that, but the fact that my mom can see the picture so rationally. Apparently, My dad and her came hard as well. That's why she understand how I feel, I also need to know what Hubby really wants. If both of us are hard to part maybe we can try.

Seriously, this I have left out I forgotten to tell Hubby, as long as you are with me I can take anything, even if they treat me like shit I also don't mind. How long I can take it? If you are there for me, I can take it as long as I live. I have this feeling, I'm very optimistic about it. I want to please Hubby's Mum, she haven't even see me so she cannot fail me. Hope she gives me the chance to perform.

This is the first time I'm so scare of losing something. This is really the first time, something caught me so off guard. Hubby, I hope you are with me. I'm really determine on it. No matter how rough or how gray the future it is I'm with you as I need you and really see you in my life. Unless, you don't me, there wont be a time I dont want you. I hope you don't see it as stubborn, I'm unwilling to let go if I haven't even try. You told me we could work it out and you do not want to give up also. ^_^ so we have to really walk hand in hand, I'm very very happy that you are willing to share the burden with me and let me cry with you and really show me the way we are heading. You are very important to me that's why I'm willing to go through all these. You can't judge the "you" that's in my heart, only I know who he really is in my heart, and cause he is worth it that's why I'm so determine to break through the obstacle. I wont let you face it alone, I hope you give me a chance to face it with you.

Hmm first step now, need to go pick up the language to impress my mom in law... ^_^

Realise that I can still blog, as Hubby can understand my feelings from here. Here is only the place for me to put my feelings and not for others to read and judge my feelings, friends and close one.

Yesterday, have a scary night. Didn't sleep cause of the headach, trying to play audition to waive off the feelings. It did not go, going to sleep after this entry. Now I'm scare of everyday, I hope my everyday don't come. I don't want to be nearer to the day, I don't want to see the future. The future is so ugly, I hate future. I don't want to foresee and realise. I want to be blind forever, I want to be ignorant.

I'm afraid to live on, i afraid of everything now. You can scold me a scardy cat, but I'm really scare of tomorrow. Don't teach me how to live on, as I dun want to face tomorrow. Future is a horrible creature. I hate you.

Arghhh!!!! My memory is bursting soon!!! All the properties of DTFT, DFS, DFT, Z-transform blah blah blah and their first principles are killing my pathetic brain cells.

MOVE IT MINISCULE CELLS!

but they refuse to move. how?

sit down and cry lor. =.='''

Gonna go to "his" house today later in the evening to study. Wasn't feeling well yesterday. My body rebelled. "He" came down to pass me medicine without notifying me at all! So sweet of "him".
No one ever came down all the way to pass me medicine. So touched. "He" called every hour or so to check how I was feeling. Waaaahhhh.... Touched by "his" concern. Can't wait to see him later.

Read Ling's latest entry. Gave her a missed call and a message last night. But she didn't reply me. Messaged her the moment I woke up just now. "I'm sleeping. I'll call you when I'm awake." was her reply. =.='''

I'm waiting....

Seriously, who say blogging is good. It has indirectly hurt someone and tarnish reputation as well, so what it let you relieve stress. You have actually cause someone heartach from it. 2 weeks ago, I wrote about my choked up. I've hurt Hubby, I've done the wrong way. Tomorrow he say he needs to talk to me. I'm not quite sure what it will be.

This might be my last entry, I never experience this before. I hope we will resolve it for good. Hubby say he need to talk to me about the things he is not happy about and he is really hurt reading my entry. Actually after 2 weeks, I realise I really over reacted. I realise that I really hurt Hubby alot but there's no chance of turning back. What I've wrote is already written, what he have read is already being read. If I'm in Hubby shoe, and I realise that my gf did this distrust in me and doubt me for everything and all that I've give in to her including my love. I think I'm devastated.

I hope Hubby will forgive my childishness, my insecurity and wrong doings. I really don't want to lose him cause of all these stupid things and I really need him. Hmm, I think keeping a diary is safer than writing it here.

Finally had the time to blog a little today. Awoken by my mobile shrill ringing. What the hell! I just can't seem to get any peaceful rest for continous 3 weeks! argghhh.... It's my mom who called!!! It's raining and she wants me to keep the clothes. =.='''

Went over to "his" place last night to study. Managed to do some tutorials and remember those freaking long mind-murdering brain cells equations. Stayed at his house till 1.15am and my mom didn't even call me. Amazing. Both of us were kinda anticipating that my parents will ring me up and start interrogating, "Where are you now?" But that didn't come. In fact, it was my laboratory friend, Jonathon who called and I hung up his call. Or was it "him"? Haa... =P

Watched Bleach together on "his" tv, lying on the bed, leaning on my heat generator - "him". "His" room is soooooo super duper cool! "He" did all the wiring and decorated "his" own room. And "his" room is sooooo super duper neat and clean! I sure sound like this is my first time in "his" room. But everytime I enter "his" room, it has never fail to impress me. "He" connected his desktop to "his" tv via tv line out and "he" did all the wiring casing himself. My my... Truly impressive. And "he" is gonna help to redecorate my room together during the holidays!

It's so relaxing when "he" is hugging me and I'm lying on him, watching tv together. I just wish time will stand still when I'm with "him".

I remembered Ling once that there will be a day where I realized I cannot live without that particular someone. I replied that I haven't once had that feeling given my past relationships. But now I truly understand what you mean Ling. I cannot not have Yongyun in my life.

Sister Yu, relax babe, everything will be aye ok. Your exams will be going smoothly and you will enjoy all your activities with YY ok? He will invite you for a very nice dinner on a gondola with Mustarch Musician and rose petal raining from the sky. What a nice ambience right, and I'll have my romantic dinner with my Hubby both holding a round cup with noodle inside that need to boil with hot water. The TV will be our candlelit, so romantic right. We are more creative I suppose, hee.

I'm here, busy with the BMW operations, demanding organizers with difficult counterparts. Anyway, it can keep me going on for awhile. Settled her last request for the day I suppose. Lazing in my office doing nothing as I clear all my work in the morning, answered all the calls and reply all my emails. I even be the dispatch for my GF as I'm bored, I even finished my welcome letter for tomorrow when we are running 99% for these 2 days.

So nice to have my life back to normal, I don't like roller coster kinda life. My poor director, she have so much things to clear on hand as she is away for 2 weeks. All the contract are pend for her signature, once she is done, I'm busy again. Understand that she need to prepare her report in regards to the overseas trip, thus I just sit here and wait.

Nearly have a heart attack from Hubby, I thought he wont be starting work A shift. I gave him a morning call to ensure that he is awake, miscalled. Opps, first day back at work he is late, called half and hour later, miscalled. Hmm, just pray hard that he is working A shift instead of not able to wake up.

True enough at 12.16, he called to say he is going for lunch. He's working morning all the way til 7pm. Its so so tiring, Rasa people can't plan roaster. I realise we are not very time manage that's why all planner who plan the roaster cannot make it. The daily problem, the roaster sucks, and its big time. Hmm, believe that my teddy bear will topple on his bed the very moment he sees it. Hope he bath first before sleeping, hoho.

Condition of Lynn today, horrible. I believe there is a virus in the office that is going round that's why people can't recover. My flu have bcome fluid, I can sneeze in and blow out, damn cool right, have a bit of soreness in my throat but I'm managing it aye ok.

As the season turns winter, my office as well. Its getting colder, I believe we must adopt the Eski Bar style of having all the overcoat hang outside the office before entering. I can even prevent an ice from melting for 8 hours, can you imagine how cold it is!! Anyway, it should be good for my skin so I just leave it ^_^

I wrote so much yet its only 5.16, no calls comes in, no emails coming in as well. Oh, tomorrow Rivermaya is having interview in our Zenden lounge. I'm going to have photo session with them ^_^ so excited found out that the vocalist is by the name of Blanco. Yeah!! My first target during the session.

Oh today, I even request reservations to forward all the corporate confirmation to my mail so that I can send them a email of warm welcome to welcome them here as well as a reminder. Hmm, I even help Evelyn to call Sintel for billing enquiries, too bad they can't answer me on the spot so I ask them to revert back to GF then.
Xiao P aka Victor is on Medical Leave, GF so sad that she don't have green apple to bite. *hug hug* GF you still got me mahz although I don't have green apple.

Suspected that Sri likes Evelyn, hey you have to pass my obstacle ok. Evelyn do mind that Sri don't talk to her although she says its ok. Aquarius do not like to be left out or being despite by other people, although they are much independent creature. I had a good talk with him while Winnie is not around. I told him that GF is very tempremental due to personal matters to make things worse he force himself into the picture by being angry with her.

It don't make sense, and it comes down to his fault thou. In an occassion, he took her phone for the 2nd time to play prank on her, that day happen to be her foul day. Count yourself lucky little boy, you had your gun on your head. GF is not very happy that she can't find her phone and when she knows its Sri she just ignore him. It turns out he is mad at her for being mad at him.

Its getting more and more illogical when I'm relating. For these few days, she is being ignore instead. Talk about fairness, thus I find today to talk to him as GF mention about it. Her tone is very casual as if she really don't mind. Do not know what is really on her mind, but for this small matter both are not talking it don't make sense.

Me: " eh you very petty lez why don't talk to Evelyn"
Sri: " she dun like me to disturb her wat so i dun disturb her lor"
Me:" hello its good you dun disturb her but do not disturb does not mean do not talk, you got it right anot"
Sri: "aiya my talk is as good as disturb"
Me: "dot dot dot"

You know normal guy don't do this thing quite frankly. Guys will only get petty when it involves with someone they really care. Am I correct anot Hubby, need to undergo phsychology lesson with my Hubby. He is good in predicting people's behaviour and character as he ahve a 'VERY STRONG FEELING' always. =p

Its been awhile since I wrote a long entry. Gotta go hang around now. Muck Angels.

If I am able to blog again tonight, means I'm still alive.

My heart has been thumping at a very frenzy rate for the whole day.
It's killing me.

Tomorrow's the start of the 1st paper.

Ahhhh... Someone please control my heartbeat...

Or maybe just get a knife and stab it so as to stop it.

SHITTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmm, I'm speechless and wordless. I have no idea what to write for this entry as well.

Woke up quite early yesterday, its the big day. Hubby is coming back, I'm so excited can't really sleep til late thou. Wake up to play audition and also catch my last episode of drama "Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi". Fall asleep on the couch, damn man, I thought i'm so excited I can't sleep. Had cough and flu, think it got to do with my teeth, I just left it no time to see a doc today. Woke up at 6 got dress and went to meet GF Eve for dinner.

We wanted to have KFC but guess what, I think Bedok just hate me. The KFC is under renovation, decided to travel to Changi Airport. Got calls from Hubby that his flight is delay. Damn again, what a test to go through. Unfarmiliar with Singapore's own airport, got a directory and was reading it intensive til we found POPYE!!! Had that the last trip with Sun and Ying ying to Hong Kong, quite tasty thou. Alright so we set off to hunt for the Popye restaurant. Comments on the directory, it is a very unfriendly map that we need to figure it out in mins time, which is very irritating.

Walk around, bump around, and we found it. THE INVINCIBLE POPEYE!!! Had our orders and after the meal we realise its not that fantastic after all. Oh well, we are not here for this sailor restaurant, we have more important task to do. Went round to the viewing mall to chat, found it too cold and head on down to the arrival hall. GF accompanied me til 2300hrs and she have to set off home. So sweet of her, although her house is near but its really an effort to travel down here and not seeing my VIH... very important hubby. Went to the rest room and back to the arrival hall to rot. Think its after 2330hrs that Sun called me, she sent her mom to the airport as her mom is flying off too. So poor thing to see her cry like that, its really not easy to stay oversea alone. She is sick from all the things as well.

Hugging her, and realise she cried even more. I just let it, so heartach to see someone crying so bad. Tried to create some topics, bring out her normal self and we start to chat and chat. I realise its been so long that we really had a chance to talk. Its been 2 months I realise. Hmm, but it is really a heart out session that we talk about our memories and our different life style. I starts to have my own circle of friends and life style, and the same goes to her, she knew it that both of us will still be the supporting role of each other, but no longer that bonded like what we use to share during work. No longer will I have an urgent call from her that she need to see a doctor, I wont be there to take care of her that much. As long as she is in the good hand of the angels, its ok. At least she is easy adapt to environment, I think all Aquarius do, as Eve and I can do it been the outcast of the company.

Finally, heard a farmiliar tone of breaking benjamin's diary of jane. Its my sms, fetch and I'm so happy Hubby have touch down!!! Sun and I squimming to find the sight of Hubby. After 40 mins of waiting we saw a teddy bear bouncing round the belt lobby. IT IS MY HUBBY, mixed feeling can't exactly explaint it.

Met him and he bent down to give me a heart warming "I'm back" kiss. I'm so relieve that he is here I nearly cried out. Ha, can't be so drama, thus have to fight back and act normal. In a cab, I realise 2 weeks is nothing. Everything is going to be aye ok!! At least I have the new courage to fight back at work. I don't know why I'm over-reacting, but his presence is really something. Maybe I'm too depend on him for being there for me. I'm suppose to give him a very tight squeeze heez, but sun is there so have to recompose myself. ^_^

HUBBY IS BACK!!!!

Bright and shine, sickness got worse. Voice have been abit weird, have to talk hard to talk normal. Been coughing like nobody business. Another surprise that caught me, MY DIRECTOR IS BACK!!!! Hooray, she is suppose to came back tomorrow, but she came back today to clear her work. Seeing her really fill my eyes with tear, no more overwork, no more over responsibility. These few weeks have been hell, occupancy is high as ever, phone call is ringing, I have indirectly become the corporate reservations officer, site inspection escorts, hotel tour guide, information counter, corporate contract dealer. No more demanding request, no more irresponsible shit thrown here. I suppose, *fingers cross* T_T.

Today I'm so chirpy my life is back to normal. Alicia told Noodle off as she wants me to send email to her travel agents. What a scence, Alicia told Noodle, "You are the Sales Manager, you should do it yourself, it is your own responsibility." Alright man, way to go. ^_^ Actually she told her off is partly because Noodle wanted to borrow her email and send to her client and Alicia is not happy about it as Noodle is not trying her very best. She can't always work with walking through back door. Ok for those who don't understand, especially Eve, kidding!! Walking through back door is taking the easy way out.

I had her another silent slap as well, she is fideling with the excel, had her report done with only 1 page. The template is 6 pages, she is complaining the computer is very stupid that it keep coming out 6 pages it is a waste of paper. In my heart it goes "WHAT!! YOU DON'T KNOW EXCEL AFTER 4 YRS OF WORKING IN THE SAME HOTEL?!?" I had it, told her to click on the print properties and print from pg 1 to pg 1. Ta-dah, guess what the princess did, she press the print icon striaght away and told me. "ITS STILL THE SAME, AIYA I DUN KNOW YOU HELP ME TO PRINT." Huh, I really despites her as she don't have a learning heart. I just did my stuff and when she came back from rest room, she ask me whether am I done. I simply told her nope I wanted to teach you. ^_^ Oh my, it seems like the good hearted teacher trying to turn a bad boi to a new leaf. She have no choice but to sat down on her chair. I direct her from my seat, File, Printer, Pg 1 to Pg 1, Print.

Noodle: "Huh, that's it so easy".
me: "How difficult u want it to be, I'm a very forgetful person, I can't remember complicated steps (-.-")"

Din't meet Hubby today, thought that he need time to rest, if I'm there he have to entertain me which is quite tiring I admit. Nonetheless, manage to pester him to know what's my present is. So curious about it, as Hubby always say he is bad at buying things for people. Guess what he bought, a pants and a few necklace. So sweet right, ^_^ can't wait to see the present that he bought for his baby!!

Oh, realise that everyone is broke, alvin is broke, julie is broke, I'm broke, sun is broke, rohit is broke, chicken is broke, naveen is broke, after GF lend me money she is broke as well. We need to have potluck on christmas to have more luck. Have to talk Hubby into doing this, its the first christmas we are spending together. So so so excited about it, even if its just cup noodle in front of the tee bee, its already very heart warming. ^_^

Alright guys, have to wake up shine to meet GF for breakfast. Tata and sweet dream...

So much feelings.

Dunno what to type.

Feeling very pissed.

Emotions unstable.

Feel like screaming.

Feel like wrecking havoc.

Sulking away.

Throwing tantrums.

Volcano erupting.

DAMN IT!

FUCKED UP LA!!!

Exams are nearing.
Wednesday is the start of the 1st paper.

Quite happy that the exams are finally arriving.
Even though I'm suffering from severe panic disorder.
Current health status - terminal neurosis, psychosis, emotional and physical breakdown.

It's the thought of all the activities that me and "him" are gonna do together after the exams that keep me going strong throughout this stressful period.

Activity 1: Tour together. Gonna have my passport made after his last paper, 31st Nov.

Activity 2: Redecorate my room. The thought of "him" designing my room makes my heart flutter.

Activity 3: Watch sunrise by the beach, drinking "his" stock of alcohol throughout the night.

Activity 4: Chalet with our group of friends at Pulau Ubin.

Activity 5: Hang out at his place to GAME!!!! Final fantasy 12, PS 2 in his room. Woot!!!

But for now, I'm looking forward to 3oth Nov. Can't wait for his last paper to end and we'll go enjoy!!!!

Back to reality - STUDY!!! =.='''

Just came back from "his" house. A little tired... Damn the exams. ARGH!!! !@#$(#!$*!#%!#$

So Ling, your "teddy bear" will be back tomorrow. Excited eh? So good.... You've all the time to lovey dovey with your boyfriend. Ha... Me and "him" undergoing cold turkey now. Because of the exams! 3 weeks of torture!!!

Kill me please... I don't think I'm able to withstand the urge to see "him"...

Sob sob...

Whao, just read the issue been discussed by Sister Yu. Well written, 60 marks for your paper. Haha.

Happy news No. 1

Danson's baby is born. Its a boy by the name of Yuuman. Oh my, he is a father already with a japanese baby. Congratulation to him, starting his family. One more stage matured with the things around him. Now he is a matured commitment family man. I salute you brother, way to go.

Happy news No. 2

Finally, after 1 week of missing Hubby is finally home. So excited about it, tomorrow I'll be meeting GF to shop around the airport first then to fetch my Hubby. I can't wait to see him tomorrow. I can't wait to see his present and chewing gums as well. Heez...

Happy news No. 3

Finally advancing to Level 10 in my audition. Alright guys give up no point chasing me. I'm coming to an end of my Novice Level and entering the world of Intermediate and Freedom. Heez, I'm waiting for your challenge!!

Not very Happy news No. 1

Went to dental yesterday to have my Root Canal sealed. Had some injection that made me dizzy the whole day. I slept infront of my keyboard at a time of playing Audition, can you believe it. Next week will be doing my first stage of making of my crown. Actually, I'm really very broke. I have done some calculation, and realise I'll be broke next month also. I am totally broke. For my next appointment, GF will be paying for it and the next next appointment Hubby will be paying for it. So by the time I got my salary and return to them, I'm broke again as the total amount is exceeding my salary. This is unbearable, can't believe that I'll be ending my year at such a stage. I'm really very worried about the financial part and I really don't feel good in asking people for money. Now, I can't really understand Julie's point of view. Its really not very nice. Its even worse when they are your close one. I have a sense of guilt of using them. I know that they are helping me up, but I feel that I have nothing to contribute to them in return, which made me feel even sucks. Alright guys, stop asking me for any parties or any big events. I'll missing in action to end my year. Maybe will just hide in the cave with my Hubby with cup noodles. ^_^

Read an article which the writer commented that people usually say "Yes" even when they mean "No". Why?

I totally agree with the writer in her perspective. How often do you say "No" seriously and you mean it? Me? Rarely. Even if I totally hate doing that specific task, I'll still say "Ok" but my heart and the mind are in cahoots, get me a voodoo doll!!!!

Why is it so difficult to say a simple "No"?

Humans are socializing beings. They need to be accepted by the norm. No human can live alone, cast himself away from the others. There's always some craving for acceptance in the form of communication or touch or even the mind. Saying "Yes" is almost similar to the door of the norm being opened for you. If one were to say "No", well, he just shot himself in the head by going against the majority. The majority will most probably view him as a outcast, not conforming to the norms.

But there are also other emotional reasons tied to it. Most people do not know how to say "No". It's so much simpler to say "Yes". They've to think of ways how to reject nicely, without being overly pushy or be thought by others to step upon.

I really applaud to those who really dare to say "No" and truly mean it. My friends always think that I'm a straightforward person. I am. Depending on the issues involved. I don't always say "No". In fact, most of the time I say "Yes" even when I mean "No". I just do not know how to reject their requests without hurting them. I do say "No" in some incidents but the outcome wasn't optimistic. Thus I rarely say "No".

Don't blame it on the women's wishy-washy factor. Men DO display such acts too.

Sister Yu, I'm totally not surprise. The planned trip is not as exeggerating than having YY in your room til midnight. You have to give your parents some faith like they give you. ^_^

Today is a busy, boring day for me. Hotel Occupancy hit a new high of 97%!! Damn busy rejecting bookings and thinking how to squeeze room. Ya same old thing when I did in Rasa, as the corporate booking is under our department care. I had 2 site inspections today, have more and more confident in selling the rooms as I'm more farmiliarize with the room nature and their advantage.

Its really not easy compare to my show room in Rasa. I don;t even converse with my guest in Rasa much, as I only need to show the room. This is different, a site inspection round the hotel. Man, I have to do this almost everyday. Give it up to Lynn please. *Clap Clap*

Today John bought breakfast for Evelyn and me. I know what he is up to. Don't let me guess it correctly ya, more test have to be giving to proof that my suspect is right. Tomorrow wont give John the chance to buy breakfast. I miss my food in the Kopi Tiam and my slow walk with my GF along the Singapore River!!

Hubby message me today, so so happy to see his message. The flight is confirmed, ETA should be 11pm. I really can't wait for Sunday to come. Sometimes I really bravo Yanny. Her bf and her have the tendency of not meeting every week as they are busy with their school work. I think if I'm her I'm going to burn my school down. I think this is what is in her mind. Girls are more tempremental at times. My Hubby will understand, he need to withstand it every month. Ha. Poor Hubby.

My brother is sick, having fever and menupause at the same time. Damn cocky when he is sick, he just having fever and he expects we treat him like price. OVER MY DEAD BODY YOUNG BOY. Its good I forgot to ask you to massage my leg ok!! Heez.

Today going to sleep early, tomorrow need to see Dr Choo!! Floss Floss... Gaggle Gaggle... Spit Spit... Hubby you faster come back to accompany me see doctor!!

Oh talking about companion, my gf volunteer to accompany me to see Dr Choo tomorrow and staying over at my house. You know, this girl is just so sweet. Any man who she falls in love with is a damn lucky guy. I think that guy is damn lucky that he will abuse the treatment cause most guys don't think with their head. Opps, no offense, I'm just commenting relax man. Wrote too much gotta go.

Ha... If I told you my parents didn't object to my planned trip with my uni friends this coming hols, are you suprised Ling?

Sister Yu, I feel that your parents feel that YY is the one that's why they totally close all eyes. Ha, happy for you. Its like I'm surprise that Hubby and I had our good bye kisses infront of my parents and they did not nagg me not doing it in the public, but it's just a small peck not those casanova thing with music and red rose petal.

Routinely having breakfast with GF, so nice we found a nice kopi tiam for us to gossip without the fear of having the talking wall near us. You know I realise that all working environment, their wall can talk. So eerie right, I should write in to Incredible tales and ask them to do a coverage on this.

Very tiring day, as I acted for hours. Xiao P and my Gf really pity me for entertaining Noodle for hours. Lucky Alicia came to my rescue and drag Noodle away for new gossip. Sometimes I find that Noodle is really very desperate, although she say she is playing round the field. She told me every single incident with the guys and she is having a few guys at a time. Duhz, give me a break.

Today, there is a waterfall as huge as the Naigiria Fall or Schaffhausen. My Gf cry, real reason of tears, unknown. Actually, its cause I miss Hubby so she cry for me. Ha CRAP!! I'll find out the real reason soon. Recently, there is a mystery for us to crack in our company. I can't revealed much here as it is really confidential til the case is solve. What I can say is it is about a fly. Ha, can't understand right, so just stay tune for my blog for more update or maybe you can popby to interview my Hubby, he will have the latest news on Sunday.

Went to KTV with Julie aka Yanny today, alright stop scolding me. I know I told you that I have my last 30 bucks, but I said that I'll stand outside Hubby house and cry til he adopt me right. In the mean time just stay cool, walk one step is a step pass one day is a day. Everything will comes out smoothly cause I'm not alone!!

Omg, so proud of my optimistic brian. Yeah!! Coming to Sunday soon, I can have my chewing gums and present. Then I'll give Hubby a big big squeeze and a big slimy wet kiss. Hope my Teddy Bear is not overcooked there. I want it brown and not black.

Flossing time, have to go gaggle gaggle and floss floss and perform my stunts. Turning 45 degree upward and brush in circula movement. Turning 45 degree downwards and do the same routine. I LOVE BRUSHING MY TEETH!!! YEAH!!! *finger cross* >_<

So sweet of "him" to drive down immediately upon knowing that I wasn't in a very good mood last night and was having difficulty with the irritating writing of programs.

"He" reached my place around 9.30pm. Went to my room to study, where "he" opened all the important "kungfu" accupoints.

Poor "him". "He" had to finish the HUGE bowl of fruits for my mom cut fruits for both of us. "He" couldn't bear to see me stuffing myself with fruits. So chivalrous! =.='''

Stayed in my room till midnight. Amazingly, my parents didn't even give a damn about us. In the past, they'll nag at me for bringing a male to my room. Even if that guy is my boyfriend, they're unhappy over such incidents. Yet last night, when we stayed in my room with the door closed, they didn't even "spotcheck" on us. Only my dad popped his miniscule little head in and said, "Don't study too late ar."

Went to have a chat at the playground near my block. Spend about 45mins alone together. Was close to 1pm when we left each other. Parents didn't call. Yaaayyy!!!!

Was expecting my mom to nag at me about both of us in the room alone together. Yeah... my parents are quite old fashion and strict with me. COZ I'M A GIRL!!!! their usual tatic to shut me up. Suprisingly, she was in such a happy mood, I knew that they didn't mind anything.

Everything's going on wonderfully great.

P-E-R-F-E-C-T

Yeah Sis, thanks for remainding me I still have my last 30 bucks. If I didn't write my blog for more than 1 day, do call me. I might be fainting in my house. Haha kidding la, I'll have my way at least the end November, I'll pack my bag and stand outside Hubby's house and cry cry there. Good idea!!

So fast, its been a week since Hubby left for his hometown. Yesterday didn't hear from him, so sad. I must be cursed man, after his gone so many things happen. How I wish he is back fast and Winnie too. Winnie, I'm dying in the office le.

Everyday have to act, I don't see why they don't like me they still can act and smile to me. I'm just a small fly I need to entertain them as well. Why, do you think I have the potential for best supporting role?? *Scratch head*

Today my senior sales manager, she complaint to my gf's boss as well. Oh my god, I really feel very guilty that I drag her into the water. I didn't mean it. I feel that Alicia should be feeling very bad about ill-treating me, as she approach me to apply for Monday off so that I can accompany Hubby.

Hur!! You think I stupid then you will tell Winnie I go for interview right. That's what happen when I went for checkup. In the end she told someone that I went for interview!!! How can a woman with a daughter do such a thing!!! Argh. Lucky Gf and me are a very strong unbeatable fly. If you want to act, we can be the best achievement award winniers. Furthermore, I'm well trained from Rasa by my Oscar!!

Missing Hubby still, hope to hear from him still. Its because of the mishap in the offie makes me miss him more. Too lazy to find people, to relate things. I just want my Teddy bear to hug and tell me everything is alright. Haiz, life is so terrible. Its coming to an end soon, with Winnie around everything will be ok. Hmmm... I go brush teeth le, Friday I'm having dental appointment. Dr Choo will scold me he say he can tell how thorough i brush my teeth. I HATE FLOSSING MY TEETH... HURMP...

Oh ya forgot to update, for those faithful readers that have already install Audition, go download your patches now. Milk have his song in the game as well, there is new mode of games as well. Damn cool, althought it is still very alien to me but its damn cool!!

You're not a bankrupt lar.... In order to declare yourself a bankrupt, you must hire a lawyer to declare you as a bankrupt. So if you want to declare yourself as bankrupt, must keep aside $2000-$3000 to hire a lawyer in case k? $30 not bankrupt! kekeke... =P

Just reach home, damn tired. Suppose to met Adeline but change of plan as I need to meet my driver Shanny which I slip my mind. Had our dinner at Zenden although its posh from the outside but cheap as I have discount, more over I can help Shan validate her coupon. After dinner went for eye brown trimming. Din't spend a cent as its already been paid forth when I sign the package.

Went to UOB to transfer money to my POSB, and to my horror I realise, I'M BANKRUPT!!!! I only left 30 bucks for the rest of my month. Please please don;t ask me out ok!! Please dont. I cannot afford. Everyone will be rejected except for Hubby, as he is my savour for the month. Haha, no la cannot take advantage ok.

Boring day, went to work boring, lucky meeting gf every morning at least I have the motivation to meet her if not I'll be having MC every week I think.

TEDDY BEAR!!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!! TEDDY BEAR I NEED YOU!!! HUR HUR... >_< no good this is not the way to end my 2006. AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!

Beep!

memory segmentation on the roll...

mov die, [EE3001]
mov dead, [EE3002]
mov doom, [EE3003]
mov goner, [EE3014]
mov RIP, [EE3011]

blah blah blah blah...

my poor brain being stretched to its maximum capability.

Beep Beep Beep Beep! BEEEEEEPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

General fault. Interruption 13.

*brain dead*

Resurrection denied.

Came across a newspaper article today, discussing about women seeking companionship after the age of 35.

An article on alpha-woman, Ms Ivy Lee which I read that really shocked me. She is one of the top property agent in Singapore, running her own business as well. Couple with her attractive features and vivacious personality, she wasn't even qualified for the "offer" stage when she tried her luck with a dating agency. Reason: her age, 42.

After reading articles one after another about women being scorned and turned away by dating agencies because of their older age group, I felt discriminated for these women. Why does the society have to be so unfair to them? There could have been unspoken reasons for why they are still single. Ignorant people just attribute reasons to these women for being choosy about their partners. It's not fair to stigmatise all single older women has being picky.

Quoting from Allan Pease from the newspaper article, " I've 3 rules for older women: One, stop having such high expectations of men. Men are expected to be the caring provider and stud in the bedroom, and preferably cry with the woman when watching Sleepless Seattle. The reality is, most men aren't able or prepared to be all that. Two, always remember that the male brain is stimulated by visual images. You must keep yourself physically attractive. Three, write a CV for the guy. In other words, know exactly what you're looking for."

I really feel like stuffing Mr Pease's nose with my giangantic eraser. Quit generalising women as that! Only women have to make themselves look attractive to men and men don't have to do otherwise? I believe both sexes have to put in effort on their image. It's not just a one-sided affair. Putting in effort to look attractive just to attract the opposite sex is not a strong reason. I believe that by taking care of one's image, it also shows how one values him/herself.

Lastly, what's up with writing a CV for the guy? We're not talking about some merchandise exchange here alright! WTH!

When I finished reading the newspaper article, I send "him" a sms, relaying to him how scary the article was written. Guess what?

"Ya, you're old le. But don't worry, I won't leave you."

#*$)*#*$!@#*@!$#%)*)&) I'M NOT OLD! LOOK WHO'S TALKING!!!! DO YOU WANT YOUR NOSE TO BE STUFFED BY THE GIANGANTIC ERASER AS WELL???

Sisters! Fear not! Do not degrade yourself just because you're still single. Don't lower your value by marrying some jerk whom you might most probably regret for the remaining years of your life. BUT don't set unrealistic expectations too. Do not settle for less just because you don't want to be alone. If you do that, you'll sure to be a whole lot lonelier later in life.

And I believe that almost all men are also looking for "The One", just that they treasure their pride more. One excellent example, my brother.

Bro: "You should start a all woman's fanclub. Don't waste your talent."

Go to hell. Tinkle with your desktop.

Today is a lazy day for me. Woke up at round 10am, had a serious blood clot in my tooth, went back to see Dr Choo again without food and water. Waited and he tend to me free, damn good right. He said it is nothing serious as yesterday we had the nerve remove so blood clot happen. He makes me regret so much in seeing the previous doctor, maybe I do not need to suffer so much. Gf Eve is right, I'm lucky that I still have my tooth back.

Feel drowsy the whole day, my toothpaste is medicated, my mouthwash is medicated and I'm medicated every eight hours. Didn't had an appetite to eat cause of all this, feel very down actually. Well, I'll pull through I'm a strong girl.

Nothing much happen today, roll around my whole house today keep falling asleep everywhere I stand, sit or ly.

My brother Weijie borrowed a movie High School Musical from his friend. Its a Walt Disney flim, quite nice. Think it is the nicest things I did today. Waiting for Hubby to msg me, think he will give it a miss today. He might be on the way to his grand ma house.

Still very angry about yesterday thou, for those faithful readers. Stop thinking, I am emotional ride. This is me, nothing can be help. I think Alicia did complaint to Xiao P since he is beside her all the time, and she is not scare of everyone. Maybe will pester Xiao P inregards to my complaint.

Spoken to Adeline about it, trash everything out to her. She do have this person around, actually everyone do. Evelyn had her PJL, I have my bitchy managers, Adeline have her irritating Physiciast. We are all good people, we do others no harm. Why do all this people appear in front of us. We do not have the power to influence them, we are not that overwhealming. As what Evelyn and me always call ourselves. We are the small fly in the company, so please have some mercy to let these flies have some breathing space. If not they will be suffocating and go wasted.

WHERE IS MY TEDDY BEAR!!!!! TEDDY BEAR FASTER COME BACK!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! HUR!!!

Just finished watching CNA program - The Ghost in your Genes.
A very interesting program.
Learnt something new, that a missing strip of genetic code inherited from the mother causes a different disease when the exact missing strip of genetic code comes from the father.
No wonder I'm what I am now.
My body must be full of faulted genetic codes, damaged in the process of my parents 'job'.
Poor daddy and mommy.
Your good genes didn't pass on well into me.

Ha... I'm talking crap.
The one who didn't get the good genes ain't me.
It's my BROTHER!!! Wahahahahhahaaa....................

Came back from Clinic, all thanks to my gf who persist in accompanying me to the dental. What happen to my tooth? Its a long story, nearly have a heart attack when I listen to what the dentist have to explain. My dentist Dr Choo, running between my house and Hubby's house. Ha very conincidence right, somedays he is at the Mandarin clinic at Hubby's place where he sees doctor. The Nurse she is so nice, she hold my hand the whole time as she scare I'll jerk. The process, ITS PAINFUL. Its worse than having a knife stab in your heart. I teared during the process. It is damn painful, what I gone through today? Dr Choo help me inject the anesthetic so that it wont be pain, as he is going to kill my nerve and take it out which they call it the Root Canal. However, it is still pain, I really teared then he said my nerve is infection that's why it can't take the medicine. Then they wash my teeth and gave me medicine and medicated toothpaste and mouthwash. Next appointment is scheduled on this coming friday at 8pm as well. Hope this time will be better, actually its really no big deal. I just come out shaky that's all T_T the doctor and nurse still very encouraging so it is not that bad.

Something happen at work today. I finally finish my report, which is really a phew. I had pile up all my works as I need to rush the report to Mr Soh in order for him to do the incentive for the ladies. I finish at round 4pm, wanted to take a break and talking to my GF at the photocopying machine. Then its been spotted by Alicia, she ask me for my complimentary voucher and I reply haven't do. I went back to my desk and rush my work again. At round 5pm, I stop to prepare the welcome letter for tomorrow and the day after. Alicia came round at nearly 6 asking for the voucher, I told her again I haven't do. Then she starts her I thoght you can finish blah blah... then I can blah blah. So irritating, I'm a first come first serve basis coordinator. Everyone's work is equally important. If you didn't tell me its important or urgent or you need it by 6 you think I'll do it?? Moreover, Sapinah and Maggie have pass me thing on the 1st and 2nd of this month I haven't even touch, what makes you think that I'll rush it for you when you pass it to me today. She reprimand me that I should read the content and gauge the urgency, seriously, I find it very rediculous. If this is the case, as I said earlier everything is important. I said earlier in my blog few days ago I don;t like my director to go away.

She told me that Noodle already complaint to her that I always don't do her things. Then if she say that ask her to say it in my face. I will show her what is always don't do her things. If I really don't do, I wont do filing, contract, agreement letter, I wont even bother to call her guest for followup!!! Please la, this is the first time you say me, so I just shut up cause you are the senior sales manager, but not everything you say is right. I'm just a coordinator, I'm not a mind reader. I can't see your face and read the content to see if the work is urgent. This is what I learn in Rasa taught by Michelle which is very truth, never think thought and assump. You don't know what the party depicts from it. Always clarify and double check.

I don't understand why they like to bully the coordinator, if I'm gone they will have hard life also. No one to do the reports, the contract and the followup. I even help to do site inspection and attend to phone enquiries of every sales manager!!! Seriously so, I'm too tired to find another job. This job really sucks, one thing is that at least I know my gf from here, if not I don't see the reason why must I stay here and clear everyone shit. Its shit ok, and its smelly shit I must say.

What a fuck up day after I wrote this much, toothach, reprimanding, miss Jo's bday, apparently everyone went except me!!! This Julie she just want to make me sad, keep sending me message of who miss me and what is happening!! You just want to make me miserable right.

Lucky the day ended it sweet, with my GF strolling beside me to the MRT, and I got to talk to me Hubby. Nearly can't regconise his voice, think I'm too addicted to him. Its only 4 days but I feel that its been awhile. I know he is very worry about me cause my GF sms him saying that I'm undergoing dental surgery. Haha, so cute right, I nearly faint when I saw the sms she sent out.

I actually feel very bad that its just 4 days Hubby left, and 4 days I bother him with my stuff. Headach la, stupid prank call la, now its the toothach. I feel even more bad when he said that he wish he is here to take my pain with me. Its so bittersweet, as I feel that I have ruin his holiday somehow or rather. Hope the rest of the week goes well, and try not to bother him so much. I still have Julie and my GF here what. Gf still volunteer to babysit me to the clinic for every appointment. Thank you so much, God never ill treat me. From all the mishap that is happening, at least he sent some angels to me. I'm glad and contented. ^_^ Oh my god the painkiller is taking effect, need to sleep now.

No mood to blog just to inform, having a serious toothach til I want to bang myself against the wall. Still many things for me to do, workload is like Mt Everest. Can't go to Jo's new shop cause of my stupid tooth it is so unbearable.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! VERY PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hurrr... It's really a race against time. I am really stretching my pathetic electron miniscule brain to the max. Preparations for exams. =.=''' AND I'M STILL BLOGGING!!!

Suddenly dawned to me while I was mugging for my exams, that I used to be against the idea of dating my faculty guys. Why? Was brain-washed by my ex-boyfriend, who constantly reminded me that the guys in my school are of no good. Coupled with quite a few bad experiences with guys in my faculty and brain-washed by my ex-boyfriend, I became quite skeptical about the guys in my school. I really believed that guys in my school could not be trusted.

Yet now, I'm a totally different person. "He" is studying in my faculty. Amazing that things can have such a huge turnabout. "He" showed me that not all guys in school are mistrustful and makes use of girls. "He" does skip lectures, but "he" has never once asked me for tutorials or lecture notes which he skipped. Really rare. For even our friends have assumed that "he" had borrowed notes and tutorials from me.

Glad that I found "him" who changed my negative perception about the males in my faculty, though I wouldn't agree that most of the guys in the faculty are of the same calibre as "him". There's still some glimmer of goodness out there afterall.

Had a irritating call yesterday nearly 1 am in the morning, slept early at 10pm as I'm having headach. Think Hubby is not very happy that I have relapse quite often. Had a msg from him asking me to please drink more water. Opps, I think I ruin his holiday. Let's come back to this irritating issue. This caller claim he is Eugene and my net friend!! Duh!! Argue with him that I do not have net friend at all. He said you are Lynn right. One thing that come to my mind, someone gave my number away. I ask for the email, ask him to give me an email and I'll go trace who is that bloody hell. He said he need to go back and check and never reply me back. Past 1am, that guy msg sorry for disturbing. If you are sorry don't send the stupid msg again!!! Ignore that am too angry to sleep, thus I message Hubby out of anger. Actually I shouldn't have made him worry since he is on holiday, but at that particular time I just want to scream at my Hubby.

Baby: Hubby! You know got someone give my number out you know... I got stranger calling me just now awhile ago! saying that he is my net friend! Argh! I ask him for the email he chat to and I'm going to trace... Hur...

Went back to sleep, woke up to buy breakfast, had breakfast, rush my revenue report, went for lunch. Had a msg from Hubby during lunch, think he just woke up.

Hubby: Huh. Well try to trace it then. but dont talk to strangers so much. who the fuck can it be. if you cannot solve til i come then pass me his number, then i'll talk to him.
Baby: Haha... dun want la... he also nv give mi the email and i dun want him to msg mi also... keke... dun worry la... just very angry yest night... now its onli 10 right y wake up so early? mi having my break now...

Am very touch that Hubby is very concern, however, I'm very guilty that I spoil his holiday in a few days time. Decided not to tell him anything, he should be able to find it in the blog. Actually, I don't have the guts to trace, as I don't feel like calling this irritating fellow, so I just left it.

Went to our D&D meeting, our Dinner and Dance will be held at 15 December and the theme will be Hollywood cum Bollywood. Guess what, Evelyn and me volunteer to be the receptionist outside the ballroom. So cool to be involve in such things, have alot of discussion to do as Karen the HR Manager dump the whole task to us.

Time to go home haven't finish my revenue report, still rushing maggie sapinah and winnie's report, I haven't finish my Monthly Sales report as well, HELP!!!! Notice that my gf Evelyn is not very happy today, very heartpain to see her like that. Vulnerable, acting strong and swallowing tears. Haiz, hope I can be of some help. I'm quite useless at times only know how to stand one corner and heartach but I'm really lost of what to do.

Met Julie, Monkey and Bryan to source for Jo's present. Tomorrow will be her big opening of the sushi shop and also to celebrate her belated birthday. JO BLAME YANNY FOR GOING CRUISE ON YOUR BRITHDAY OK!! SHE DOES IT EVERY YEAR, THAT'S SOMETHING WRONG... Oh for those who have no clue who is yanny, she is my beloved Julie Tan Pei Yan.

She also pass me the wedding invitation card of Richard and also the Full House vcd. So nice, Richard is going wedding, going to be alone surrounded by couples as my Hubby is scared of such events. Anyway, Hubby is me, I'm Hubby mahz, who go doesn't matter. (To Hubby, pun meaning added if you know what I mean).

Have bought a spagetti strap and blazer at Iora which cost me round $69. Omg!! Hubby not here I'm spending like crazy, so many new things in my room now. Heez, pampering myself, anyway 13th month is coming close. Audition time, tataz...

Hubby: Testing
Baby: Ya... Can receive... Can You receive my sms yesterday... I sent 2...
Hubby: Baby sorry. Yesterday and this morning, I had errors in sending messages. Now should be ok. You can call or message me ya. Roaming is enabled but sometimes have problems. Hehe.
Baby: How's everything there? Lots of fun with friends clubbing and riding? Heez...
Hubby: Na. Yestday I went to visit my friend in his shop. Its nice. Hehe. Then had dinner with mom. Today didn't go anywhere. Maybe in da evening I'll go meet some other friends. So our photos hve been uploaded in nightlife huh. Cool. I'll check it out.
Baby: Ha... So you can receive my msg for yesterday la... Lucky nv waste my time typing... Hee... Try to make full use of your time ar... and go tell your mom i got buy things for her you forgot to bring ar... Haha... and go source for my 5K ar... Haha... Very stress hor sms mi... bleah... Must take care ar... very scare you will fall sick...
Baby: Hubby for nightlife you can use my id... xxx and password xxx...
Hubby: Ya sure baby. You take care ya. Love you
Baby: Ok... I'll take care then you miss me ya... Hoho this week will go dentist...
(After awhile when I knock off...)
Baby: Hubby can you receive my msg? What time is it over there... Today got nice thing happen... I'll write in the blog later...
Hubby: Its 17.11 here now. sorry for replying late. I just came back. Mom and I went to my cousin's place. well I am happ that you are happy today. Write in the blog later ya.

Ha I'll list down the nice things happen to me today.

1) Had Cup Noodle for breakfast.
Had craving with my gf, and we bought cup noodle to satisfy our quench.

2) Changing my photo to the one in nightlife.
Changed my photo to the one with my Hubby in nightlife. I change it in my company's MSN as well.

3) Hubby msg me.
So happy hubby message me. This is the first time he left me so far, but then so far so good. Lucky he train me well, we seldom meet on weekdays... Heez... So nice to update and catch up with his life even if he is in Nepal, feel that he is so near so near. Although the time difference is far.

4) Mr Antonio Silva is in house.
Got a compliment from this guest, and he actually invited me to one of his overseas branch here in Singapore the Wineconnection. Look like the Argentina footballer Bautista, just abit plummer. Opps.

5) Finished 1 of my 9 reports.
Haiz, so busy, only finish 1 Pegasus report for my Director of Sales. Need to rush tommorrow!!

6) Lunch with junk food.
Had my junk food lunch, ate potato chips and gf and doreamon had ice cream.

7) Manage to perform magic with gf
Ha, trick Silvia and Sri into believing my magic. so achieving without my Hubby with me!!

8) Enjoy the sight of Xiao P having injection
Although he never cry which is what I'm waiting, however I stil have the chance to jeer at him.

9) Impart excel skill to gf
Wonder how she becomes an Accountant, not to worry your gf aka excel professor is here for you.

10) Along the way home, solving problem with front desk.
Had a dispute with guest, lucky this Sales Coordinator is not good for nothing, still can assist in something and most importantly answer the call after office hours heez.

11) Jam audition.
Its been awhile since I touch this game, deteriorate alot!! So frustrated, and it lagg!! Happy to hear that Ms Driver aka Shanny is installing the game to play. ^_^

12) Writing my blog
Yeah ending it with writing my blog, so nice to have everything in kept here for future reference for my young ones. Ha!! think too much le la!!!

Meeting Julie tomorrow to hunt for Jo's bday. Hope tomorrow will be a better day. So sleepy really so tired, don't get to sleep well. Today even my gf say there are 2 layers under your eye. HUH!!! CANNOT NOT AR... LATER HUBBY DUN WANT ME LE!!!
Heez... dont look me no up ok, I'll recover and be very pretty when I fetch Hubby. I'll be so stunning that the whole airport power trip. HAHA. Crazy me, Audition time.
I MISS HUBBY!!!!!

To "him",

While you're driving your way home, it poured out of the blue. Mommy suddenly asked about you. She asked me if you're driving or taking the train home. I didn't even tell her that I was meeting you just now. =.='''

When I told her you were driving, she said, "Drive carefully. Raining heavily."

Hee... Happy? My mom cares for you. And I don't have to tell her anymore that I'm meeting you since she always assume it's you anyway. =)


Love lots.

Had a shopping spree last night with my banker mom. Spent $170 on clothes from Fond. Feel so bad to always use my mom's money. Tried to pay $100. But she refused, instead saying that, "You don't buy clothes often. In addition, you need new clothes and when you were with your ex, you didn't even get to pamper yourself."

Thanks mom. For everything.

This is for "him".

Good morning! Know that the very first thing you'll do every morning when you log in is to read my blog. Can't wait to see you after your lesson ends. Though it's just gonna be a 30 mins hanging out time, really feeling the excitement since last night, when you told me you'll drive down to my house after your GE ends.

Wishing that evening is now so I can see you immediately.

Yeah, receive msg from Hubby!! I'm so excited!! Best of all nightlife.sg have our photos posted when we are at China One!!! Below is the msg I receive when Hubby reach Nepal.

Hubby: Baby can receive my message anot. Just trying.
Baby: Can... You forgot to buy chocolate from duty free right... Haha
Hubby: Haha. well I didn't get time to buy baby. Now in the cab going home. wow so nice, my auto roaming is enabled. Hehe.
Baby: Haha stop wasting you money... Send my regards and u do take care of yourself ya... Missing you already... Hoho...

So excited, met up with Emily Mum for shopping, bought gals boxer from top shop finally and a clip from Chomel.

Actually this afternoon, I forgot to clear the air. This is for my Hubby hopes he reads it.

To: Hubby,

I'm actually quite disappointed that you don't tell me that you borrowed the 5k from Sun. If I know, I wont feel a damn thing on Sat. I'll even hug and kiss her for helping you out. I dun understand why you always have to keep this and that from me. If you have been more truthful and really update me with details a few misunderstanding might have been avoided. When I met you to collect the ticker then I realise that Sun lend you the money, do you know I feel like a total asshole on Sat.

I said alot alot alot of times already. Being together is not about pride or dignity. Its about sharing and helping each other and embrace and tolerating each other. I'm not a girl friend that is good for nothing. I can shoulder your burden together with you, that's why when I'm being bullied by Noodle I told you. If you feel that these are supposed to be kept then next time I suffer any mishap in Gallery I wont say a thing even if I'm been triphump by other people. Hmm, I'm sorry if my words are too harsh for you. Hubby, I really thank god that he send you to me. You brighten up my life and make my life to the fullest. You remember, we are the same species and we think alike, our theory all similar. I do not want any misunderstanding to destroy our beautiful chemistry that we have. I know its unfair for me to blabber here and you there jumping and jumping. I trust you with all my might and for you I really believe that you can take care of me very well and forever. It's just some careless things that guys miss out.

I know that you wanted to protect me so much, that you want to waive away all the bad images or negative comments. Somtimes when it comes to my ear from other people, I will think too much. I know you dun like to see me cry, that's why you rather me to fetch you from airport then to send you to airport. I know that you dun like to argue with me over small things that are unnessary wasting our quality time and tarnish our relationship. I know you dote me like a small baby hope that I'm unharm and wont fall sick just by the blow of the wind, but the underline of it all. I want to protect you too at least I can cry with you. I'm selfish just like you, I just want you for me. I want to be the first to know things, laugh and cry and angry together with you. So that I'm the most update of your life and not listen to others to keep update of your life. At least I feel that I'm really the person so close and connected to you that I can feel your bleeding and happiness.

Hmm don't know whether you will see all this, anyway if you like to comment something or you like to correct me about something drop me a mail if you cannot wait til you reach Singapore. Send to my hotmail add as my yahoo have too many mails and i dun check my yahoo.

Try not to have hard feelings, spend time with you friend that you missed so much. I can feel your loneliness when you tell me that they are not coming back here anymore. Ask them to accompany you to pack my 5kg of parcel. Haha I'm just kidding but I do expect a gift from you. Wanted to find something for you cause I'll be doing shopping everyday I think. Nothing from Gap, nothing is nice thou. Take care of yourself dun fall sick to the drastic change of temperature. I'll worried ya.

From Baby Dum Dum

Actually I have send him 2 sms, but I realise it don't reach him when I called his mobile to inform him that nightlife have our photos posted. The phone is unreachable, aiya who say your auto roaming is on. Heez, alright have to go now. Feel better that I write it down, you guys know i'm not a person that is good in talking. I always lost in a war of mouth. Wrote it down here is to convenient myself. At least he got to read it, and I wont miss out the things I wanna say.

Adious Amigoes guys!! Its late I needa sleep. Next 5 days very busy!! need to rush 9 reports!!! Cause my director of sales is away... (-_-'') tell me about it next time guys. Its sucks without my Hubby. I love You !!